Parenting isn't easy.

I hate the moments when being a Mom, just makes me want to cry.......
When I feel like I'm doing it wrong and when I feel like I just can't do it right.
These moments are rare, but so real, and they scare the living crap out of me.

Drastic measures.

With all the craziness, and sickness going on around here the last few days, and my lack of blogging.

I forgot to share what I did over the weekend.

Yep. I got brave.

Very BRAVE!

I went from being a brunette... to being goth.

Haha.

Just kidding.

(I don't look goth, but I DO have black hair.)

Yes, you read that right.

It's BLACK.

Now, honestly.

At 1st. I panicked.

Everytime I'd walk by a mirror, I'd scare myself.

But, I'm getting used to it now, and I actually REALLY like the change.

It's funky, spunky, and different.

Great for fall, and winter.

Plus, my friends LOVE it and the hubby thinks it's HOT.
So, I'll go with it.

I don't think They'd steer me wrong.

(at least I hope they wouldn't.)

Experiment.

A few nights ago, Lee offered to set some of the settings on my new camera.

I knew he liked to "play" with it just as much as I do, so I told him to go ahead.

Next thing I know...

 BOTH of the kids are leaping from the coffee table to the couch totally having a blast.

Laughing, giggling, and then there is Lee.

 Just snapping away.

He informs me that it's the only way to set the "motion" setting.

Needless to say:

It worked...

... and the kids weren't complaining.

Update.

Haven't posted in a few days.
Been sick around here.
Haven't even been on the computer.
You know SOMETHING is up when I'm not on the computer.
Hahaha!
I've had the cold, and then messed up my back while coughing.
Yeah, COUGHING!
Pathetic, I know.
Anyhoo... happy to report: I'm on the mend.
Lee's out of town tonight with his Dad and it's just me and my stinkers.
Cindy was sweet enough to bring over dinner, Becca stopped by to visit, Tirzah picked up my kids from school, and brought over homemade fudge, and muscle relaxers.
With their help, I have survived this evening alone.
It's so appreciated.
Looking forward to tomorrow.
Lee gets home, and it's TUESDAY!!
What's so exciting about Tuesday?
Hellloooooooo?
The Ugly Truth is out on DVD!!
Whoop-Whoop.

Sick to my stomach... in a GOOD way.

I have been looking forward to the day that I could really focus on my dream.

Thanks to my wonderful in-laws, that time has come sooner (waaaaay sooner) than I expected.

With the help of them, I now have an awesome camera, with endless possibilities.

(Yes, I will be "paying them back" for the rest of my life, but it is my pleasure.)

I can't thank them enough.

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I have been playing with it since I got it, and TOTALLY feel like a kid on Christmas morning. :)

Most people wouldn't understand the "big deal" of it all...

But, for me this is everything that I have wanted for a very long time.

This allows me to begin.

Begin my journey in photography.

Yeah, I have TONS to learn, and I have BIG dreams.

But, I am passionate, and I will do it.

I am so excited for all that is in store for me.

I know it won't be overnight, but that is totally ok.

I am going to enjoy it all.

Every step of the way.

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 The winning phrase this week has been:

"You have to start somewhere."

Well... I start HERE.

Say CHEESE!

You all know of  my LOVE for photography.

You also know then of how my poor kids are ALWAYS my little guinea pigs.

I take pictures almost everyday of them... Yes people. EVERYDAY!

(That is why I said "poor" kids.)

Hahaha!
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Well, today I ventured out.

I actually photographed children who aren't mine.

I was a little nervous of the unknown,

but totally amazed at how comfortable I was with it after a few shots.

It was an awesome feeling.

Capturing moments, and memories for this family to always have.

I got great pictures, and most importantly GREAT feedback.

(It also didn't hurt to make a little extra dough.)

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~Thanks Dawn for giving me the honor to photograph your little girls~

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Here are a few of my favorites.

Enjoy...

Here comes the bride... with BATMAN?

Well, Halloween was last night, and it was a HIT!

Kaylee was beautiful, and Layton...

Well, Layton was the BEST Batman I have ever seen.

Yeah, that kid was really into it.

The pictures tell it all:

He informed me that:

"Batman doesn't smile."

Haha!

He stayed true to that statement.

He was hilarious.

Instead of saying "trick or treat" at every house, he decided to say:

 "I'm Batman" in his deepest voice.

(Which wasn't very "deep.")

I lost count of how many people he made laugh.

Sometimes I wonder if that boy will grow up and become a comedian.

I wouldn't be surprised.

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Kaylee spent the afternoon being pampered.

She didn't complain.

She had a manicure, and her hair, and make-up done.

(Ok, so it was by ME, but she enjoyed it none the less.)

I must admit, it did FREAK me out just a little.

The fact that someday it will be the real deal.

Let's just hope that it's waaaaaaay down the road...

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We  drove them around town, stopping off at Becca's, Grandpa Howards,

and Nana & Pappy's house.

Then ended up at Grandpa & Grandma Frakes' for pizza,

and "trick-or-treating" with their cousins.

The Bennett girls were ALL pirates, and stinkin' cute ones at that!

All in all,

It was a GREAT night!

(And they have 10 LBS OF CANDY for the proof!)